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Duetsche_Doggen

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I read halfway through the responses and started crying again. Went through the photos and videos trying to ease the pain but it made things worse. Ruby I truly believe that Thor was one of those special once in a life time dogs. Someone who leaves such a great influence in your life. We did kind of "grow up" together so I do consider him a brother, and like true family he's stuck with me through some rough spots in my life.

Yes, Ruby pizza was Thor's favorite food. After I would let him out to use the bathroom he went straight towards the truck, if we were having pizza that night. How he knew was anyone's guess.

Raechiemay, thank you for understanding I felt bad saying but it was the truth. Just like Thor to me, and Daisy to you there is something there that bonds us closer somehow.

In Stone's defense he's been clinging to me the whole time, even more so than usual. Even late last night while I was cleaning up after Thor's accident he was always touching me by my side. I played some videos of Thor and he started whining. Shortly after I threw Thor's favorite football to see what he would do. He did attempt to play with but then he backed up towards where I was sitting and started whining. I may be humanizing Stone but I think he understood, that was Thor's toy.........As soon I said that I started crying again, then Stone who is laying right next to me jumps on the desk with his front feet. I try to push him away but he kept coming back......Finally I hugged the crap out of him and cried hysterically again . Feeling him reminded me of the last time I hugged Thor. I do badmouth Stone and he does frustrate me, despite my lack of connection with him. I think he does "care" in his own way. He does do things that reminds me of Thor so I guess in Thor is still here.........
 

ruthcatrin

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I totally missed this yesterday.

All I got:

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NYDDB

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Your story brought tears to my eyes...and I am so sad for you, and for your loss. But, you know, he waited for you to come home, I really believe that.

Just know that you gave him such a good life, and that love you shared in this life will not die..

Peace to you.
 

Duetsche_Doggen

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NYDDB, I think that's what hurts me the most. The places I found vomit and urine was where I would normally be.........I was not there and I feel like I failed him in the end. My only comfort is that we had good times, and even though I was not able to hold him while he passed. At least he did managed to "hug" what part of me he could while I was driving, before leaving......
 

jersey girl

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My heart is breaking for you. You didn't fail him at all...you gave him so much love. Nobody could predict this would happen to your boy...I believe he waited for you as well. He will always be with you.
 

trixie28

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So sorry for your terrible loss. I'm new on the forum so don't know you but I do know the pain of losing a special friend my heart goes out to you.
 

Duetsche_Doggen

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Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I go through periods but with each day its starting to get easier and I can read this without crying as much. Sorry to be a debbie downer, I dreaded this day and thought I could prepare myself for his passing, boy was I wrong......
 

DMikeM

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DD I am so sorry for your loss. I broke down reading the event and could only think of my Storm when she went. The memories are so vivid and painful and I know so much how you feel. You are stronger than me as I cannot even look at Storm's pictures almost 10 years later without choking up. My thoughts are with you in your grief.
 

Kaiser12

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So sorry for your loss. It's clear from your posts he was cherished. I'm sure he found comfort being with you at the end.

RIP Thor. :(
 

Rugers-Kris

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Oh, DD! I just read your replies and I cried horribly the entire time. I know what you are going through and the pain is so awful. When I lost my Duke (12 years ago) I thought I would die without him. I know that sounds silly but he had been my best friend for 15 years and I couldn't stand to function in daily life without him....But it does get better or at least easier. I wish there was something I could do to help you and be there for you. It took me 12 years to find my next "Duke" and he lays at my feet in the office right now. He isn't Duke but he and I actually share the bond that you are talking about even though I have only had him for 9 1/2 months. I had other dogs after Duke and I absolutely loved each one but I understand the special bond......You certainly didn't fail Thor...You gave him an amazing life and were his very best friend to the very end. Feel good about that..:)
 

Duetsche_Doggen

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Rugers-Kris, that does NOT sound silly at all. Those of us that are fortunate enough to be graced by finding that "special one" know what it feels like when they leave our lives. I too had many dogs before Thor and I can say a part of me died when he left. Each day does get easier, if I find myself crying randomly, its ok. When I feel sad I just look at Stone, having him here does help. Although small, Thor did leave an impression on Stone and I find him doing some of the same thing Thor did. Knowing that you guys care and understand what I am going through is enough for me. :) I'm happy that you found your Duke in Ruger, someday I hope to find my Thor.
 

Kate Williams

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I've had two that I felt that way for. A dane and a Chihuaha go figure. I still miss them both after all this time. These guys just get under your skin. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.
 

raechiemay

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These guys really leave an impression on our lives don't they? From the best and worst times.

Yes definitely. I never imagined to feel the way I do with Daisy. I lived with my parents at the time I got her & I was so anti-little dog. I went through hell watching my parents dachshund have seizure after seizure & I made a promise that I wouldn't have another little dog. Then I saw Daisy & the rest is history. I do really want to get an ink pad & get a good paw print from her & have it tattooed under my left arm close to my heart. I don't know how you feel about tattoos DD but maybe it's something you can do in Thor's memory. May sound kinda silly but at least no matter what happens he'll always be with you?
 

Duetsche_Doggen

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Not silly at all I'm just not a tattoo person, lol. The emergency vet gave me a mold of his paw with his name the night he passed. Then when they cremate him I'll get the ashes and urn. My dad is working on my favorite picture of Thor. So when I move I will have it displayed somewhere.

Kate Williams I'm sorry how funny but I bet you guys were the three amigos. :)