So 2019 has to be hands down the hardest and also most joyful year of my life. To start off at the end of last year I finally decided to leave my controlling abusive husband. It was crazy. The kids and I bounced around for a while. Then we finally got our own place. Then I met the most wondeful man. Jason has been such a blessing to me and my kids. We all fell in love with him. My divorce went through and all seemed to be progressing well. We moved into a 6 bedroom 3 bath home. But then tragedy struck last month. I lost my only son. He was messing with a gun and it went off. I had just left. He showed me the gun and it appeared to be unloaded. It happened in front of 10 of his friends. Jason and I rushed back. They wouldn't let me in, but Jason ran to him. It was devastating. Jeatin was on life support for 3 days. There was no brain function. He was an organ donor and saved 6 lives. I fell apart completely. Jason arranged everything and by the grace of God we pulled off a beautiful funeral. There were so many people there the building was beyond capacity. My son was so loved !!! And through his death several young people got saved. We sold all that we had to give him a proper burial and are now struggling. But its ok. Cause I get to see God move and use my son's life to save many. The greif is hard. Unbearable at times. I'm asking for prayer. I need all that I can get.