What a sad situation this is and I hope that you find a way to help her and keep her in your life. The idea of her being taken away (Already having anxiety) is horrible. I do commend you for the effort that you are putting forth. I understand how hard it is. I raised two pitbulls (Ruger, 7 weeks, is my first Mastiff) and three kids at the same time and for the first 1 & 1/2 years of my Dukes life I threatened to get rid of him every day!!!! He was awesome, intelligent, well mannered, absolutely loved the boys...you couldn't ask for a better pup BUT he was an absolute nightmare when it came to destroying stuff!! If I wasn't home...He ate EVERYTHING!!! He chewed a hole through my wall...Yes, I could see to the other side, and he got very sick and cost me a mountain of money from the insulation. He dismantled my entire lawn mower while I was at work one day. He was wandering through the house, went into my bedroom, and by the time I got hom everything in it was ruined! The list goes on and on. I told myself everyday when I came back to the house (It made no difference how long I was gone 1 min - 8 hours) that he had to go!!! That there was just so much I could do. I loved him SO much, he belonged to me and I belonged to him...I couldn't do it. I walked him until I couldn't get up, I bought every toy in the world (human and dog), We ran, we played, I bought him a trampoline (He LOVED it!) to no avail......
When Duke was just about 1 & 1/2 years old and I was exhausted I still loved him but I was finding it difficult to like him and just knew that I would eventually have to remove him from my home then one day, while at a yard sale, I found a sit & spin (Depending on your age you may not remember these) and I bought it because I thought it would be so cool to give it to my boys as I hadn't seen one for so many years. I took it home, showed the boys (They were not impressed, by the way) and it sat in the middle of the kitchen when I went to bed. Suddenly, I heard such a racket, that scared me to death and I ran out into the kitchen and Duke was trying to spin the thing and it would spin for a second and then lose it's grip on the floor, at which point he would sling it all around the kitchen (Talk about some costly damage). He loved that damn thing, though!! The next day I took everything out of the "spare" room and put the sit and spin in there and he went to town (but the damage to walls was too much) He could spin it for a while and it would lose it grip and he would then sling it around until he managed (accidentally) to set it right again (this took awhile and wore him out) and he would spin it again. I ended up buying the gym mats, putting velcro strips on the wall and lining the walls in that room halfway up with the mats....The room became what the kids would later dub "Dukes workout room" and, although, he chewed a few things up over the years after that.....they were your usual little thing and the next 14 years I enjoyed my best friend, he grew up with my babies, watched over all of us and the memories still live in my heart. I couldn't ask for a better dog and I am pretty sure that I would have never been able to truly decide to let him go I am sure glad that I didn't have to find out. Your "sit and spin" could be the next thing you find, who knows what it may be.......I know you are having such a difficult time but keep trying! May an accidental purchase allow you to reclaim your home soon!
WOW! I do apologize for this lengthy post, this story really hit home for me. I wish you the best of luck.
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I apologize HE not SHE